.huiqian
sweet 16
19 march 1990
bpghs
dance

a husky or a retriever (((:
more pets (lol)
a chic handbag xD
new tops (weee..)
have 500K so tt i can study overseas
become a VET!!(tough journey)
more wu xia pian dvds (i<3 'em)
go new zealand (((:
do bungee jumping!!
there is 30 hrs in one day
and mani many more... humans r nv satisfied x)

beixi
belinda
charlene
charlene hwang
chien lan
daomin
denise
fajina
grace chia
grace yeoh
hidayah
jessica tan
jiahui
juvone
li jia
luffy
mingxian
rashal
ruyin
tzewei
xiufang
weiguo
zulhafiz

my beloveds' rants

HEY ALL, RELINK PLS.. I HAVE CHANGED TO WWW.GAZINGATADIFFERENTSKY.BLOGSPOT.COM

LOVE,
HUIQIAN

with love
9:03 PM

first and foremost, i would like to THANK THOSE PPLE WHO TAGGED.. i reali reali love you guys to bits.. i am reali thankful for having such great pple in my life.. it is u pple that made my life so meaningful and bright.. =D

its reali hard, having to move away from the place in which i grew up in but with the encourages i get from u guys, it reali reali made it a whole lot better.. thank you and thank you for everything!!

replies to tags:

danao: hey gurl, i've got soooo much things to say to u, u know.. but i am juz gg to make it short here.. i reali reali LOVE you! thank you for all the mental and emotional support u gave me throughout these years.. thanks for being there for me during the rough paths of my life.. ther's no way i will forget a frd like you and yup, i got myself a webcam alrdy!! HAHA.. n u was my first guinea pig..!! haha..

rimei: helloooo rimei.. i will surely miss ur spastic-ness!!!! and i will not forget ur fear for watching horror movies.. heh heh.. OKAY, will do! i will definately look out for LEE YAN YI! any idea which university she gg?

noeleen: noeleen!!! thx for ur encourages!! i will miss u too!! i will take good care of myself, so don worry abt me (: and i reali reali hope u can fulfil ur dreams abt becoming a vet.. do well in ur jc and get scholarship!! u r much smarter den me and i am sure u can do it!! =D stay hopeful my dear!!

louis: thank louis!! yes, i will cheer up and will continue following my vet-ty dreams..!! thx for tt cute n meaningful tag.. kp in contact okay!! FRDS FOREVER n EVER alrite?

tzewei: HELLO CHANTZEWEI!!! i will soooooo miss ur hyperness and ur crappy talks... :'( and thx for tt super touching sms.. and yes, i will surely bring smth back and NO WAY, a samoyed.. tt will have to wait for anuder 10 yrs? or 20 yrs? lol.. but anw, thx so much, reali.. for being such a goooooddd frd for four yrs!! n u r not pai ka larhh.. onli for a while.. bear with it for the time being and b4 u knew it, u will be aceing in ur fav sport-tennis

juvone: hey hey gurl!!! its been soooo long since i last talked to you.. sry i didnt update u personally abt my departure... its been a hellish week and moreover, i had work attachment forthe entire of last wk.. so, very sry abt tt.. thx for ur very very inspiring tag.. u noe, i can always depend on u for some reali gd advice and inspiring words.. pls pls don lose contact okay.. idonwan to lose such a understanding frd like you.. Keep in contact always kay. love ya!!

hidayah: thanks!! and i will be strong! (: don worry abt me and i do hope tt u will excel in ur future too!!! i will miss ur blurness!! rmb ur huh-ing during sec 2.. everything we say and u will go "huh?"... don lose contact okay!! i realise u seldom go online.. so update ur blog often so i can know wads gg on in ur life and rmb to tag if u hav the time!! i will tag u too!!

zul: HEY zul!! sry sry sry, its my fault that u didnt noe i was leaving... i am so sry for nt notifying u personally.. i was reali reali busy and didnt have the chance to tell everyone tt i am leaving.. but anw, thx for ur well wishes!! i also wish u all the best in ur future and i will miss u tooo!! u r always such a nice and HELPFUL person.. reali.. reali.. kp in contact ok!

cow: HAHA cow.. u nv fail to tickle me with ur lameness kay.. but thx, i appreciate ur effort to make mi feel btr.. and do u reali MEAN IT WHEN U SAY U CAN VISIT MI IN PERTH????? THAT WOULD BE AWESOME!! haha.. and yep.. we can always meet up on msn though we cant meet in perth.. L2 gathering in perth sounds GREAT to me, but a lil bit.. erm.. haha.. nevertheless, i will miss u cow!!! mooooooo...

ber: hey gurl, I WILL NEVER FORGET U DE LARH.. don worry!! i don wan to lose a great frd like u.. its always very 'soothing' to talk to u.. dunno y leh.. heh.. i will take good care of myself and i sincerely wish tt u can do well in everything! u study hard too!! (:

i am feeling rainbow-y thus the post.. (:

with love
12:59 AM

Confirmed flight: SQ 2nd Feb 1.15am, gonna make downpayment tmr........

well, this sux.. i juz realise i am reali, seriously not ready for this.. i cant bear to leave my family, the ones who gave me support when i needed them most... the ones that made mi laugh when i am realli sad. the ones who unstress me when i am damn stressed up by the exams.. the ones that comfort me when i did very badly for my exams. without them, what happens when i do badly for the exams in aus, i will be left alone to cry on my own. nobody to comfort me, nobody to cheer me up, nobody to rush over and hug me when i am sobbing in the middle of night and watch me sleep before leaving the room. i will miss dad's hug and cheerfulness and sis's soothing words of comfort. :'(((((((((((((((((( i hate this.. i cant put up a brave front and tell dad i will be totally fine there anymore. i am afraid i would break down... i hate to make my family worried about me. I HAVE TO BE STRONG. i would miss bebe, fate and cow too esp bebe, whom would sit quietly on my lap whenever i am sad and sometimes, i could almost hear him telling me to cheer up.. after 6 yrs when i come back for good, bebe would be long gone... i cant even be there for him when he dies... :'((((((((((((((((((((((( i feel like im effing selfish.. to fulfil my dreams, i sacrifice my family and pets..my sister has been depending alot on me since she was reali young for advice, comfort and all... without me, she is sure to suffer.. i noe and i noe that she's putting up a brave front for me to see when she says she would be ok on her own. shes damn sad but also wants me to pursue my dreams thus she kps insisting she's okay........

my best friends too.. i would tear and tear whenever they tell mi to take care and tt theyw oudl miss me alot.. i would miss all these best friends who cared so much for me especially danao who would always be ther when i need her, always lend me a shoulder to cry on, always the one who gave me lots and lots of osund adivce. i would miss hugging her when i am damn sad. and all my other best best friends.. i would miss their laughters and all the good times we share together, playing, studying and having heart-to-heart talks.. i would miss all the sleepovers we had together whereby we would talk till the wee hours.. :'(((((((((((

THIS FUCKING SUCKS DAMN LOT. i finally knows what does it feels like to have your heart all wrenched up. it frigging hurts, more than anything else. i once was hospitalised and had to go on a drip and i told myself this must be the most painful pain ever and now i know how terribly wrong tt is. THIS is the most painful pain ever. :'(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( god, i am reali suffering now. this sux this sux this sux this sux. wad can i do???????????? i am sure to leave next fri.....................

nobody understands.

with love
12:03 PM

two things to blog abt:

1. working at the vet
2. letter of offer

I'll blog about working at the vet first cuz after i blog abt the letter of offer, i doubt i'll have the mood for anything already :'( well, its nt like tts any difference nw.. but anw, working at the Joyous vet was both FUN n ENRICHING =D

I saw many of the surgeries carried out by Dr Heng and Dr Ng.. Initially i tot i would be freaked out by the blood and all lah.. but turned out, i was pretty fascinated by it. LOL.. its reali reali cool lah.. but i am nt too sure yet if i would still find it cool when i am the one carrying out the surgery.. =/

Well, i am not supposed to disclose the process of the surgerys and all because its HIGHLY confidential so nope, i am not gg to blog anymore abt the surgerys.

and YEA, boy.. was the people fun there.. I tot the atmosphere and all would be rather solemn there ( i have many imaginations abt tt place b4 i went, n it wasnt very good though.. lol). AND was i WRONG, it was so fun there.. the people ther are very very friendly and funny too...

Yesterday didnt hav much surgerys, and with both docs on duty, all the surgerys were done within an hr.. so we pretty much slacked from 4-6pm ( for ur info: joyous vet clinic is closed frm 3-7pm for surgery)

I was reading serene's comic.. Jolene was reading Crayon [la pi xiao xin].. Serene was skimming thru the newspaper den read read read until she get to the Classified Ads, and then, she started looking at the job columns and Jolene was like, SERENE you crazy arh, looking for job in front of Dr Heng.. LOL.. and worse still, she was looking at the Escorts column. tsk tsk.. I am nt gg to sae wads Dr ng doing but believe me, its not smth verh glamourous.. LOL.

we let out all the cats n kittens to roam about and its reali funny to see the things they do to each other n to us.. HAHA.. the three lil kittens are reali SADDAM HUSSEIN lah.. tsk.

we went for dinner after tt.. and i ate the DUCK RICE. one of the best duck rice ive ever eaten.. ok, promote this rice first: SUNSHINE PLACE at CCK, has the best duck rice. ther's two lah.. you have to go to the one nearest to drinks stall. YUMMY.. anw, both dinners with the vets and vet nurses were great.. altho they can get quite erm.. yah.. at times..

anw, the attachment had made mi reali sure tt i wan to be a vet. nt juz a normal vet, but a REALI GOOD one..

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Letter of Offer time;

yah, i just recieved my letter of offer frm Murdoch College, after much complications.. by right i shud be like YAY, FINALLY I RECIEVE MY LETTER OF OFFER. but.. i dunno y i am nt feeling tt way.. instead, the nagging feeling of sadness and all once again, overwhelmed me.. zzz.. i am not even sure if i am ready for all this.. i mean, yes.. i have been dreaming of being a vet for SOO long tt i cant even rmb exactly when did it start.. but still, at tt moment i didnt tink of the consequences tt follows with it..

I mean its like, then, all i was thinking is how i can get into a vet course.. but now that i have got into one, its like.. i start to contemplate whether this is what i reali want.. and i start to hesitate

(oopps. no time.. ok.. edit later)

with love
10:08 AM

GOING to WORK at the VET CLINIC tomorrow!! (: cant wait!!!

Anw, went temasek poly todae to check out on the NEW vet technology course.. i went there with HIGH HOPES thinking that MAYBE i can don need to study at Australia.. but turn out, its not relevant to my vet doctor dream :((((((((((((( n wad i nid is a bachelor degree nt a diploma too.. so, there goes my LAST hope of staying in Singapore.. :'(

So now.. waiting patiently (yah ryte) for my LETTER OF OFFER to come.. ZZZZ.. and i called IDP for so many frigging times, tt the whole campany knows about me and my urgent case. LOL.. cuz this guy (Andrew) called me and this was the conversation

ME: hello?
Guy: is this Miss Loh? i got a message that you need some help.
ME: (all the crap to introduce myself)
Guy: oh, you are THE murdoch student?
Me: eh, we met b4 arh? (cuz he seemed to know me lidat)
Guy: No, but WE know ur this case VERY urgent
Me: (shocked but try to act composed) ohhh.. i seeee..

LOL.. funny lah.. okay, gtg.. watch my tv! i am so high now, thx to ctw!

with love
8:58 PM

i declare the blog a dead one.. zzz.. so mani things to blog abt.. like how JJC rocks. and how much i like my new JJ friends.. yup. but too lazy.. just feel like ranting now.. feeling very vexed now.. so this would be a whole load of crap. ignore this post please if ur time is like extremely precious to you n if u do not wish to spend ur time reading boring rants.

oh, dont expect a gd flow of english too. this is pure ranting.

so yup, i applied to study in aus, lesson starts there on 31st Jan but i have yet to get the letter of offer, apply my visa, book a plane ticket, go for medical checkup. just great.. all thx to my wonderful agents. thx huh thx.. just as i tot my feelings could calm down abit, feeling totally lethargic now, my feelings, head and heart had all been on a roller coaster. and now, this stupid dumb problem crops up... i'm not sure i can stand this anymore, seriously. here i am sick, and still i have to deal with emotional and external problems. wth ok.

im putting on a brave front and not giving up because of dad, if not for dad, i would have long given up on this whole entire thing. to hell with the dumb ambition, seriously. dad's tired, i noe.. but he's trying hard to help, ferrying me to and fro, helping me solve problems, encouraging me when im like all about to give up. this is an extremely painful decision, to study in aus and leave my family behind.. nobody would understand because my family situation is nt the same as most of the people. and i can sae tt sis would surely suffer alot without me by her side. seriously, i feel fucking selfish lah, so i was not all that eager to apply for it. but dad had many long talks with me and after some reassurance and persuasion, i decided to go for it.. for some reasons also.

so now i am totally lost. mayb its heaven's will or smth tt i cant be a vet. first, i was relunctant to go because i cannot bear to leave my family behind. then, i was persuaded by nt only dad but my uncle too. den, i finally decided to go for it. was abit worried that i couldnt make it in time for the 1st intake but tt fellow told me it was okay. so, i submitted my application form. now, some idiot tell mi tt it might take 4-6 weeks and its almost impossible for me to make it for the first intake. n he muz sound so cynical. shit.

so, wad am i to do now? i am not even sure if i shud continue my 1st three months now lah, bloody ass. i am sorry, im juz feeling very annoyed, pissed, dissapointed, dejected, sad, sick and all kinds of negative feelings larh. URGHHHHHHHH!!! this frigging sux. maybe i shud go to TP and go get a frigging diploma in veterinary technology, wadeva the hell was tt.

NONO NO WAY MAN..

nw that my dream is so near to me, i shud catch it instead of letting it slip away. this is my passion, my dream tt i hav been longing for, for ages! ohmy, wad am i thinking. yes, i shud brace myself and for my ambition, i would not succumb to obstacles. i will NOT give up!

i wan to thank talweez too, for all the things you have done and are going to do for me. THANKS.

i sound as if i have gone bonkers, dont i? zzzz..

with love
6:13 PM

Yesterday's 204 gathering was the most sucessful de bah (: IT WAS SO FUN =D laughed like mad thruout the whole gathering.. marcus's forever so entertaining,.... he's always so funny without himself knowing.. played taidee wit goh, marcus, ong, tzewei and daomin( for the first time, i call her tt. lol.. feels so weird la) but anw, yea.. played wit all of them n u might b thinking, how the hell did we play dee wit so many pple. thus, we created the elimation rule. it was so frigging dumb lah, the entire thing... LOL. i cant exactly pen down wad happen thruout bt it was just FUN (: the game was a whole lot of spontaneous fun =D some of the funny stuff

1. danao n ong kept YA-ING [trying to go on top of] each other. LOL. NOT literally lah.
2. goh kept losing. like forever oso lose until the verh last game. won with 3 Ks and 3 dees. LOL. n he's like lidat can win anot? wah piang..
3. pang's trying to get rid of his taidee bai chi nick
4. tzewei dropped food FROM HIS MOUTH onto TAYYI'S LAP. LOL LOL LOL. n the sarsi was rather tasteless so he said its SUGARFREE sarsi frm INDIA. verh wth larh bt god knows y i was so amused by it then..
5. i hid the unfinished cake under the table n ong saw. LOL.
6. nao finished one game with a dee and she got kicked out of the game. FREAKING FUNNY LAH.
7. i got stucked in the toilet, could hear all of them shouting for me to come out but I CANT!! the frigging door is soo.. aiyoo..

OH, we played the commarades game thing and out team lost. had to do forfeit. n our forfeit was to squat down and do duck walk in a line, shouting "I WATCH PORN". as if doing duck walk was not bad enuf lah.. Anw, nice dexter volunteered to lead us and lol, he was the only one who kept shouting I WATCH PORN. LOL LOL LOL.

OH, there are two beauuutiful golden retriever just beside talweez's grandma's hse. weee.. rashal n i was getting soooo 'smitten' by them.. =DD retriever's our ultimate love. bt they were doing verh unsightly stuff. aiyo and so we were forced to leave.. tsk tsk.

after all the games and eating, we went for a night movie with jonathan, marcus, tzewei, goh and danao. NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM. it was totally hilarious, and the plot was verh interesting. so overall, i would give it a 4 star rating =D thanks cl for the recommendation too. after the movie, i was feeling cold, hungry, sleepy and sickish.. zzz.. awful feeling, n finally reached home at 12 plus. ate lots of sandwich b4 gg to bed without brushing my teeth and bathing.. too tired :/

overall, it was a fun day. thank you for all those pple who turned up and made this gathering such a successful one. and TALWEEZ, i miss u so much and thx for the university advice =D i will NEVER forget class 204 [and 4L2 also!] even as the yr 2006 drift by or even the other years to come. i love my classes and BPGHS. =DDDDDDDD

ohno, hq is getting emotional. bye.

with love
6:20 PM